Thursday, June 21, 2012

Being my son's mum

Am just wondering. And thinking that there must not be anything else as beautiful and as special as having a baby fall asleep in your arms. My son turned 16 months old on Tuesday and I still haven't gotten used to it. It really is the most pure, calming thing to watch. Even though it often takes me more that a few minutes to get him to nod off, its so rewarding when he finally does.

Kinda reminds me of motherhood. It takes so much physical and emotional strength, it can really wear you out. Make you wanna runaway but would I have it any other way? The answer is a simple, clear, emphatic NO! Every child born is worth the tears and the pain and the work and the sleepless nights. Every child born is worth it because not only is giving life and nurturing it beautiful and rewarding, God says that the children are His. We just happen to be stewards. And so we better carry out that role with fear and trembling as we will one day give an account.

Reflect on that today and if you're a mama be encouraged (You can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens you!)

Love and blessings

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Finding grace

I'm going back to school! No not that kind of school, another type of school. Its, how do I put this, a God kind of school. Oh yeah there's lots of learning to do I can barely keep up, its a crash course! There's so much to grasp! During this time spent in isolation, am learning a lot about life, about myself, about God. Re-evaluating my priorities and crossing things (and people, yikes!) out of my life.

The first major lesson that I've learnt so far is God's grace. I mean, total, unadulterated grace. Not defined to me by some spiritual guru or leader, just simple grace and experiencing it for myself. Grace, oh that word sounds so good to my mind and to my lips, I'm gonna have to say type three more times! Grace. Grace. Grace.

 Oh what joy to know, that I've been bought with a price that I am not my own, that despite making a mess of my existence I am still loved! To know that whatever happens, God, my Father, has got my back. I'll never scare Him away, I'll never hurt Him so deeply, I can ever irritate Him with my annoying habits. He's really here for the long haul. How's that for reliability and dependability? Our God is awesome! No human words can describe His goodness and bigness of heart!

And so even though, there's been some scary things happening in my life, it takes a whole load of pressure of my back to know that I am His. And He is mine. And His grace is sufficient to me and to you too dear friend. Accept it, receive it. He loves us and who can ever have too much love?

"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." 2 Cor 12:9

God's blessings and peace to you all!

Monday, June 4, 2012

The Potter's hands: Reinvention

Hey so I know what some of you are thinking, that when I say reinvention I mean the usual stuff, you know cutting your hair dyeing it blond or drastic weight loss followed by this major makeover. Ha! I wish!

There will be no hair cuts and makeovers for me, rather I mean a serious reevaluation of how I live, the things that rob me of my time and energy. The things that hold me back from being the 'me' am supposed to be.
Just this past week, God has really been pointing out some things in me that really have to go. I mean really, they have no place in my life anymore. And sometimes its scaring, some of this things are old habits that somehow creeped into my life and now feel like part of who I am/

It feels like am gonna change so much and even though it can only be for the better and for God's will to reign in my life, its really unfamiliar. But the two things I know for sure are:
1. God is in control. He knows exactly where we're going and He made me, I mean who better to be in control than one who knows ALL things?
2. When God is calling to a place of renewal and readjustment its always because greater tasks lie ahead and how can you move onto tomorrow if you hold onto to yesterday? How can one serve two masters at the same time? Impossible.

And so even though this is an out-of-my-comfort-zone place for me, I will listen and I will trust and when I find I revert to my old self, I will own up and allow God's tender hands to clean me up and continue with the molding process. He's a great Father.

I hope and pray that God is working His molding power on you too and that you allow Him. Painful as it maybe.

 "And yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, and you are the potter. We all are formed by your hand." Isaiah 64:8

God's peace and blessings to you all